Friday, August 26, 2005
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hmm.. i failed a test.. sadly to say its econs and supposedly easy, the worst thing is that i am even below class average for that test.. really dissapointed wif myself, but i hope i wun repeat that same mistake again. hmm.. it came to me that suddenly i feel im so aimlessly living my llife.. no aim to work towards to; things i've been doing recently has nothing to do with my future goal of becomin a movie director, skipping drama, whenever i can.. and playing table tennis hoping to win even knowing the fact that i would not get anything by doing that.. and i think i have been over obsessed wif provide the class guys with effective jokes( unlike john's one) that i have totally ruin my reputation in the hearts of the gals in our class.. haha.. that i think maybe..or its rather a known fact. todae i dissaproved gender equality in GP lessons, and was being titled a MCP by gals.. hmm.. maybe i am.. but its really wad is in my mind, didnt want to hide my tots just because my reputation is at stake. todae i used vulgarities on a gal right in her face, first time in my life, i feel so sick wif myself, i totally lost control over my sanity, felt really sorry for doing that, i wanted to say sorry initially, but just didnt feel like it when i see her face to face again. hmm.. maybe u guys may be interested in wad happened, the gal was claire, classmate from my class. i was scolding yisan 'chee bye' for askin for class funds too often and in large amounts and claire stepped in to suddenly scold me for no reason, nt as if im using vulgarities on her at that moment, yet she gave me an attitude look and as if i did something wrong to her, so i said, and rather loud ' cheebye i scold cheebye also nt your cheebye problem ' , in chinese that is, haha.. wasnt in that mood to think much den, she went quiet after that, seemed like shes mad wif me, but it just boils my blood so see gals, and guys, wif serious attitude problems, thinkin im good mannered and thus good bullying target, if ur mood is not good, go somewhere and fuck yourself, not vent it on me. okie im suppose to say sorry aniwae, being a man, so sorry claire, if u eva see this entry, i still respect u as my classmate and pw group member, and maybe it can only be that much for now. hmm.. think i have changed alot, i would neva even raised my voice at any single gal b4, i hope shes e first and e last.. if not i would become some idiotic jerk that i couldnt even stand myself, thats all i have to blog todae, or rather for the week.. sorry to readers for the offensive content that u might be reading now.
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Posted by bore-d at 9:19 PM